I just can't get it out of my head...

This morning I have woken up with a song in my brain that will not go... not the usual kind you hear on the radio and it sticks. Its the humming kind that you know you know, but can't recognise and even when you sing it to someone else they can't tell you what it is either.

Thank you for the kind comments about my upcoming silliness. I do realise that I am being daft, however it still seems strange to me that I'm nearly 30, I have a (reasonably) responsible job and a mortgage, and I still feel 16 even though my mother keeps telling me and I quote "use more cream on your mush kid, you don't want those wrinkles to get worse!!!" Nice that isn't it. ( I don't have any wrinkles - they is laughter lines!!!) Genetically I'm lucky, my mother who is nearly 60 (retiring in 8 weeks and 3 days she tells me this morning) looks ten years younger than that and has nary a crows trotter on her face. I'm hoping that I'll take after her.


So lady Jem, I shall take on more adventures, make sure I slap on the Nivea (thanks mum) and make sure I have some juicy gossip from the night out I will be having to celebrate!

Another day.... another dollar

Isn't it a lovely new week. Don't weekends seem to accelerate the older you get!!!

Well just three work get ups for me this week, then I'm off on Mbira leave! I'm even more excited today than I was when I first posted about it! Then I'm off to Carnforth to visit family, after that, then the big time hits......The big 30....

All activities in the next few weeks will be to distract me from the date that I'm convinced will be the clock signalling my speedy decline into senility. I don't know why I'm being so daft about it. People keep telling me 30 is the new 21, well you know what, 21 seems like a much nicer number to me! Although, as most people will probably tell you, I'd like to be 21 again and I know what I know now! Still as far as I'm concerned it is an excuse to break out the whisky and have a little commiseration!

That Friday Feelin'

I've not been so glad it is the weekend for a LONG time. This week seems to have been never- ending. What with the Fridge part of the Fridge freezer now having given up the ghost (I've only had the thing 4 years....) ARGHHHHHHH and the strategic gubbins that I've had to concoct for work and will be quizzed about next Tuesday in the way PhD students are when they have their Viva, I'm more than ready for a large glass of something alcoholic this evening. I have the latest Issues of Fiberarts and Country Living and I'm going to have a little chill out (probably some Chinese... or... oooh a curry) and have an early night... all ready for what will be the mentalness of the weekend and much bunting and invitation construction for mum's impending retirement party (only 9 weeks to go... not that she's counting!) And probably a visit to St Helens to drop off presents for my little cousin Helena who is going to be 2 very soon!

I hope that anyone out there reading this has a marvelous weekend too!

S

Cryptic riddles

Today's post will be a strange one me thinks. Have you ever done something you wish you hadn't but, are oddly glad you did because it forced you to look at something else you hadn't considered? Please don't ask me to explain, but I'm in that position at the moment. Now like most people (I think, please correct me if you think I'm wrong) me and my life are a mass of contradictions. Personality wise I swing from lunacy to quiet shyness dependant upon the people I'm with, and how I know them (or to be honest what part of me I'm trying to hide to prevent scaring 'em) . I count myself very lucky to know and get on with lots of people, yet only probably half a dozen actually can recognise when I'm being "completely" myself and I think it is a good thing. Its a good thing to keep certain aspects of your life to yourself isn't it? Apart from the fact that I like to surprise people who think they know what I'm about (part of the breaking Librarian stereotypes malarkey I suspect!), I think some things are meant just for you.

I think for the most part, me is the quiet shy one who can always call up the lunatic when needed. But when creating which is what I was doing last night, there was something different that inhabits below the surface, not something I've noticed much before but I'm sure that recent events have unleashed. The question is, am I brave enough to let it out? I'm not convinced yet... but what happens if I don't?

I was wondering how easy it would be to be honest on a blog, it is surprisingly easy and so so hard at the same time. It's easy to acknowledge when everything is not as usual, but hard to put it into words. So I'm sending out this post, without any expectation of comments, I just needed to submit it to "paper"

Thirteenth on the Thirteenth!

I decided that I'd save the thirteenth post until today! on the two magpies principle!

I think I'm quite superstitious as it goes. I didn't really realise that until today..... therefore let that be todays lesson!

Also congratulations have to go to my little sister who today received confirmation of her new job offer! So CONGRATULATIONS SOPHIE!!! Here's to the latest Information Resources Manager in the family! I'll do a longer post tomorrow!

Famous last words

It looks like someone didn't hear me regarding this snow doesn't it!

Never mind. There are things that are lovely about it. I love the way it feels when it falls on your eyelashes. The way everything becomes clean. Making the first footprints, turning round and looking where you have been. I love the way it turns adults into children when they have a snowfight. I work in a very multicultural environment and I have witnessed lots of people seeing the first snow in their lives this week. That has been a lovely experience, so perhaps someone knew what they were doing after all.

Mmmmm.... time for another cup of tea me thinks....!

Here's to great snowy days

Please no more snow....

Now I'm as big a fan of snow as can be, but please... no more when I have to come to work! There is a time and place for snow. That is at Christmas. Christmas is now over, therefore there should be no snow..... right, now that I've got that out of the way.

I finished the Brooklyn Follies last night... still undecided if I liked it. It was odd, not as odd as that film with Juliette Binoche in it where her and Jean Reno are being watched/filmed and the video's sent to them, but in the same way.

Luckily I found a book I'd half started so I'm reading that. The secret purposes by David Baddiel. Its about the internment onto the Isle of Man of "aliens" that were deemed dangerous to have walking about during the war. It is loosely based on the story of his Grandparents. I'm liking this much more.

I'm still looking for suggestions. In the main I like slightly unusual books. I'm not adverse to chick lit or even (I'll say it quickly) the odd M&B. The story (be it real or imagined) is the thing!

Sophie - I know 9 cups is excessive, I realise this now, but please don't confiscate my tea mrs!

Nice Cup of Tea

Justa quick question.... How many cups of tea do you think it appropriate one person drink in the space of an evening, 2....3..... what about 9....Do we think this is excessive??... In my defence they were only little cups and I was getting into my new book. In answer to your question lady Jem, the book I bought was Matisse, his art and textiles... beautiful book. The book I was reading last night was called the Brooklyn Follies, I'm reserving judgement so far, but I've brought it to read today at lunch so it must be growing on me!

I'm out of novels after this.... any suggestions?

Turned out nice again!

On Friday I seem to remember posting that there were no plans for the weekend.... well this changed. I ended up coming to work with my sister on a mercy mission on Sat (far too long and boring to go into) so that was that and then on sunday.... well I have to admit I slept in 'til 12 and then went to a book shop (yet again did not come out empty handed) but hey - its a book.... no harm ever came from buying books. Then I spent sunday evening cutting out squares for my mum who is making a patchwork for her friends daughter. It will be "our" third this year, after two massive wedding quilts it will be a pleasure just to do a single bed quilt! So still fairly quiet weekend, but good none the less! (despite no time for sculpture) never mind!....here starts the new working week!

I just don't know what to do with myself

ITS HERE!!!!! The weekend has arrived. This will be the first weekend in such a long time (I believe October.....!) that I have NOTHING planned! Not Friday night, not Saturday, not Sunday!!!! So what do I do.... housework ... I think not... shopping.... not when I've had to pay to have the heating fixed AND a holiday in one month....

I could go to the Tate or the Walker...be a bit cultured (who I am kidding) or perhaps I should carry on with my sculpture....

...I wish I had a camera to show you...

...I'm making a sculpture. An outward expression of my connection to the creative experience. Heavens to betsy that sounds so grim and pretentious (I hope I'm not either - I try not to be) How the bloody hell else do I describe the thing??? Its exciting really, it gives me a colourful outlet to pour in lots of energy, an excuse to drink four pots of tea in an afternoon, play Divine comedy, Django and Bach 'til my ears ache and helps clear out the stash, although it transfers more rubbish to my poor top bedroom (office/junk room....)

Perhaps that's what I'll do. That'd be nice... then what to do on Sunday.....

Why does everything happen at once?????

This morning whilst hovering between asleep and awake and filling the kettle I walked to the fridge to retrieve the milk and stepped in a puddle of water.... yup... the third thing....my freezer has defrosted itself... After much swearing and being glad that it is bin day I emptied what was left (not much in there after a week of lurgy and not wanting to go shopping) so hopefully that'll be it. The other two things 1st one - central heating, 2nd one - dodgy chimney.

Sorry now rant over on to more exciting things. I've had another comment - I will learn how to reply properly to you individually (bless me for a Librarian I'm remarkably useless with technology) AND someone from the land of the scousers too. (Thank you!)